just mine

先苦后甜

2011-12-04T08:12:00.000-08:00

If there is genie, could you come to me tonight?

Is glad to know that you are still working hard on your dream.

Lets fight for it! Go go go! No sweet without sweat.

It blossoms

2011-04-26T10:49:00.000-07:00

Life is sweet;

It is short but sweet.

You make it sour sometimes;

It does sour, but still sweet in my heart.

Life is bitter;

Although it does, but no pain no gain.

You added some spice and herbs in it; You make my day always =)

Life is about - 'Remember to smell the rose!'

Four Boyfriends

2011-04-03T06:55:00.000-07:00

Once upon a time there was a girl who had four boyfriends.

She loved the fourth boyfriend the most and adorned him with rich robes and treated him to the finest of delicacies. She gave him nothing but the best.

She also loved the third boyfriend very much and was always showing him off to neighboring kingdoms. However, she feared that one day he would leave her for another.

She also loved her second boyfriend. He was her confidant and was always kind, considerate and patient with her. Whenever this girl faced a problem, she could confide in him, and he would help her get through the difficult times.

The girl's first boyfriend was a very loyal partner and had made great contributions in maintaining her wealth and kingdom. However, she did not love the first boyfriend. Although he loved her deeply, she hardly took notice of him!

One day, the girl fell ill and she knew her time was short. She thought of her luxurious life and wondered, 'I now have four boyfriends with me, but when I die, I'll be all alone.'

Thus, she asked the fourth boyfriend, 'I loved you the most, endowed you with the finest clothing and showered great care over you. Now that I'm dying, will you follow me and keep me company?'

'No way!', replied the fourth boyfriend, and he walked away without another word.

His answer cut like a sharp knife right into her heart..

The sad girl then asked the third boyfriend, 'I loved you all my life. Now that I'm dying, will you follow me and keep me company?'

'No!', replied the third boyfriend. 'Life is too good! When you die, I'm going to marry someone else!'

Her heart sank and turned cold.

She then asked the second boyfriend, 'I have always turned to you for help and you've always been there for me. When I die, will you follow me and keep me company?'

'I'm sorry, I can't help you out this time!', replied the second boyfriend.. 'At the very most, I can only walk with you to your grave.'

His answer struck her like a bolt of lightning, and the girl was devastated.

Then a voice called out: 'I'll go with you. I'll follow you no matter where you go.'

The girl looked up, and there was her first boyfriend. He was very skinny as he suffered from malnutrition and neglect.

Greatly grieved, the girl said, 'I should have taken much better care of you when I had the chance!'

In truth, you have four boyfriends in your lives:

Your fourth boyfriend is your body. No matter how much time and effort you lavish in making it look good, it will leave you when you die.

Your third boyfriend is your possessions, status and wealth.When you die, it will all go to others.

Your second boyfriend is your family and friends. No matter how much they have been there for you, the furthest they can stay by you is up to the grave.

And your first boyfriend is your spirit. Often neglected in pursuit of wealth, power and pleasures of the world.

However, your spirit is the only thing that will follow you where ever you go. Cultivate, strengthen and cherish it now, for it is the only part of you that will follow you to the throne of God and continue with you throughout Eternity.

Pass this on to someone you care about - I just did.
~Being happy doesn't mean everything's perfect. It means you've decided to see beyond the imperfections.~

Thanks for loving me

2010-12-13T08:24:00.000-08:00

In our life, when we were born, we are not alone. We will first have our family. Or maybe you are lucky enough, you will have siblings. And we will have our grand parents. From families until the time you went to school. You will have friends. Teachers. Mentors. Neighbors. Not living in a lone world, and YES, many times, maybe a single decision that we have to make, we need to consider about how this decision or simple act is going to affect others.

Today was a normal day for me. Wake up in the morning, as usual struggling in between the Angel and Demon thought, whether to continue my sleep or being a responsible worker and back to work. Well, normally Angel wins. After preparing everything, something unusual happened. I could not find my cellphone, and i thought this would not affect much cause it is just a cellphone. Today was a normal working day for me. I worked until 9 and still thinking whether to continue or come back home. Lastly, I decided to come back, if i don't would be difficult for me to get a transport back. When I got back home, first thing i did was looking for my cellphone. And YES, I couldnt got it at first, then I heard the familiar ringtone, was my mum calling. I was surprise my dad, mum, sister has been looking for me whole day, and they were worrying about me, just because I did not answer their phone calls today. I feel so sorry about my carelessness, i thought this is just a small matter, but I did not know that this would make them so worry about me. I promise will keep my cellphone with me 24/7. Promise.

We came to this lovely world, we are not alone, although there is a saying that, everyone, start from zero and back to zero in the end. But on the way to the zero, the number that we hold will be increasing, maybe 2*, 3*. Some people, just a fraction of some others. Each of us will hold a different number, but at the end, we will back to zero again. This is fact that we need to accept, and YET, we should not give up working hard to get different number from others. We should not gave up, no matter how hard it is.

Still can recall what my senior executive said last week, during our dinner at KLGCC. When he was giving speech, suddenly he stopped, and staring outside. Still remember what he said, he were saying: It is raining outside. It is raining right? Em =) I guess we might able to see a rainbow. This remind me of someone, who were also encouraging me always by sending me photos of rainbow that he took whenever he saw it. I wan to share you with this picture too =) It takes both the rain and sunshine, to make a rainbow =)

Thanks for the love =)

December 11122010

2010-12-10T08:20:00.000-08:00

Has been a while that i promise myself i need to update my blog, but i didnt keep my own word. Well. But life is still going on, without getting any rest, and time just slipped away.

It is my 5th month here. A lot of changes in this 5 months, like I got my first job in a company that i actually thinking that I wanted to get in once left college; Fully detached from pa and ma shade; My dearest grandma passed away, without saying a goodbye, she left.. miss her so much =(; Went for rock climbing for the very first time and do really enjoyed it; Nevertheless working working, overtime overtime, eat and training, then eat again.

The cycle is like never ending and keep going back to the first step of the loop. Gosh, it is an infinite loop. But thinking it carefully, our life is it just like an infinite loop, and the cruelest fact is, we will never able to jump out from the loop once we get in. Keep on repeating it the routine, over and over again. And YES, we would not realize that until the day we left.

Has been thinking about this for a while, what is our purpose in life? Just to earn a living and live? Is that? Cant switch my mind to the other mode, when I have my time alone and the nerves are so awake.

Well, talking about life in KL, sharing out some of the recent pictures =)

It was taken during the Christmas bash last week. Team were fighting on ps3 drum set. =D. We went to KLGCC, having buffet there, love the sunset view there, especially the viewing out from the hall. <3

Those are decoration on every table. So sweet right?(kindly ignore the tissue paper =.=)Was having lucky draw of Apple products, but I didnt win any. The lucky winner of 64GB I-Pad just sitting at the same table with me =(

Last Tuesday was enjoying my holiday, Selangor's big big one having bd. So went out with CL, CBing, went for movie - Due date. Is a Comedy, but dont like it much, the story is so not logical. And YES, can observed from the picture(it is obvious), we went too have a coffee, and did some "crap-ing" at Bad Ass cafe, since they are having discount if you hold the GSC stub, =D. I ordered "Snickerlicious", well, too sweet for me, next time will just go for "Cappuccino" or "Macchiato" instead. The ice blended green tea tasted good with the caramel. -Recommend-

to be continued =)

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2010-10-10T08:23:00.000-07:00

My new babe, an adorable plastic babe with a white plastic wallpaper. It has been 3 months+, 10 days more in order to make it to 4. Has been spending most of my time with my plastic babe, eating around and meeting people from different background. This always amaze me, when I actually found out that they are all gurus of mine, in order to have me where I am today. Oya, and coffee~ Love spending the moment with my plastic babe with the taste and scent of the drink, which enriched with this brown beans. Well, it is hard to get rid of this caffeinated drink I guess =) 250 days to go, much more to share, will update more when I tidy up all the photos collection. Be patient luv>

Take care and good luck all my lovely friends. Love ya always.

Never say never

2010-06-26T11:23:00.000-07:00

Karate kid theme- Specially like the snake lady :)

Never let you go =)

2010-06-26T11:14:00.000-07:00

Probability

2010-06-09T21:09:00.000-07:00

要离开了。还有一天的时间。
只是，离开是为了下一次的再回来，对吗？

好像丧失了前进的勇气，就连退后的勇气也没有了，为什么？
没有勇气向前，或许是失去了前进的动力，也许只是害怕未知的一切。

退后呢？
不想前进，可是就连退后也不想，也许是怕输，仅此而已。
。
。
。
我信任的朋友，CL，你到其它地方去继续你的梦想了。
我开玩笑的说：你回来会不会来找我啊？
没想到你说：会。回来我就去找你。

只是，在你离开的这几个月，能说话的朋友又少了一个。

会想念一起吃火锅的moment,
一起喝酒什么都说的moment,
还有半夜睡不着觉，把你吵醒的moment。

期待下一次遇见。

生命中的朋友，一个接着一个，

到来，又离开。
有些，还会再遇见。
但是有些，说了再见，就一辈子也不见了。

每个能遇见的朋友，都存在着一个机率。
它存在于 0 - 1 之间。
很感激那 >0.5 的机率。

我珍惜的朋友们，虽然我们不能时常碰面，

只是，想让你们知道，我爱你们 =)

Angels in life

2010-06-02T07:11:00.000-07:00

有些人，不需要说太多好话，依然让人感觉温暖。

虽然可能一辈子，就只见那么几分钟，

可是，带个的笑容，愉快的谈话，一辈子也难以忘怀。

这些人，是生命里的天使。

有些人，在你生命里带来了欢笑声，泪水，

影响你的心情，带来了快乐，生气，难过，疑惑，甜酸苦辣，

但是他们，陪伴你成长，包容你的缺点，欣赏你的长处，

这些人，在你性格里的不完美里，看到你还未发光发亮的一角。

这些人，也许只陪伴你走一段路，

只是，他们滋养着你的心灵，让你拥有更多的勇气走下去。

这些人，也是生命里的天使。

Addiction

2010-04-27T02:04:00.000-07:00

This two weeks

is going to be the most extreme tension

pre-examination weeks before graduation.

As usual,

i granted the devil inside

by intersperse this two weeks of mine

with caffeine indulgent,

allowing it in stimulating

the tensed emotions of mine.

2 cups per day,

most probably

would not get caffeinism.

In fact,

it helps with my weight management plan =)

Perfect!

This moment,

am unspeakably,

cure-less

in love with

coffee.

Final Year

2010-04-19T10:06:00.000-07:00

Finally, it is over. It was a relief when i stepped out from image processing lab this afternoon. Hopefully will get a good result with my project. But this is also means that the wonderful and enjoyable university life of mine is going to end soon, real soon.

I think i will definitely be missing Melaka, tons of friends here. Half feet stepping out of the door of my uni, and the other half is hint less, dont know where else i shall be heading to.

Good luck jasmine law, no matter how, stand still and remember where you are and get to where you want to be =)

私疲れだ

2010-04-14T10:04:00.001-07:00

按照惯例想你了。

我知道不应该，

知道不可以，

知道自己应该学习放弃，

然后学习忘记

真的累了，

可以停下来吗？

需要个肩膀，

需要一个紧贴的拥抱，

需要一个声音，告诉我：你可以不必伪装坚强，

可以对我说：累了就歇着，让我来。

真的真的累了。。

Fall in Love with Paris

2010-04-05T04:27:00.000-07:00

。

不能握的手，

比爱人更长久。

当提起你的名字，

心还跳动。

其实我的执着依然执着，

听到你的声音，

心还是噗通噗通跳得不行。

决心不和你联络，

不能握的手，

比爱人更长久。

只有失去的拥有，

最永久。

。

（杨丞琳 - 匿名的朋友）

有一种等待，

让人心情变得不好。

卑贱的等待是，写了信息却等不到回应。

这是可让人精神累透的脑细胞运动。

想离开这让我累透的圈圈。

我只想一个人，

一个人就好。

告诉自己，

明天一觉醒来，

从新出发，

反正从来就不属于我。

Sweet dreams~

2010-04-05T03:54:00.000-07:00

美梦总是特别容易被惊醒，

尤其是每次到了紧要关头，

让人不禁觉得好想一直梦下去。

典型的被惊醒有

电话铃声，

闹钟。。

梦终究只是梦，

被惊醒是好的，

它让你实际一点，

美梦过后终究还是需要面对现实的，

早一点醒来也许是好事。

心中那深刻，

浓厚的巧克力口味，

还在。

只是，

吃太多，

还是会腻.

人总是喜新厌旧，

喜欢破坏规则，

爱好违反传统教规，

越是被束缚，

越是反抗。

是天性，

但,

是可喜的吗？

男人女人，

都是贪心的。

为了满足贪心的欲望，

就会耍手段得到它，

或许是为了一时的满足，

为了填满空虚的欲望，

可能只是填补片刻的虚荣。

只是，

无论什么东西，

用什么方式得到它，

注定你也会以什么方式失去它。

简单的幸福

2010-03-26T10:40:00.000-07:00

在冷冷的雨后喝一杯暖暖的咖啡，

在炎炎夏日吃着解暑的冰棒，

累的时候有张床，

冷的时候有张被，

无论什么时候有一群志同道合的朋友，

有深爱你的人在身边，

幸福很简单，

所以，我只想要简单的幸福。

Individualism

2010-03-22T07:33:00.000-07:00

There are moment

that we wish we could travel back in time

to make changes.

But after that,

can we ensure that

what we had make

would be a better outcome

for the future?

No one could have know that.

Many time,

we are wondering

why everyone thinking differently,

why for the same situation

some other would have different opinions

and react differently,

to answer for all these wondering,

because we all are so call individual.

Individualism, is that a good thing?

ar...

Tired of all these..

Going to bed..

zzz

Jazzy..

悠哉悠闲的saturday~

2010-01-30T09:50:00.000-08:00

有一股冲动去动物园看斑马，结果去了。

约了WF一起去。

兴致勃勃的到了那里，看到小动物的我兴奋得有点象小孩。

结果，大部分的你们却躲了起来，

不让我欣赏你们，今天的动物有点“冷”。。

第一次和WF出去，在mamak喝茶，

点了咸鱼炒饭，结果那碟比较像是辣椒炒饭，

我还是把它给吭下去了。

和他聊呀聊，居然聊到了减肥，哈哈。

没想到他有KG80+，一点都看不出。

他说他看不出我有KG50，暗爽到我。

但是，我真的觉得他不算是胖，

有大只一点，只要努力健身就可以了。

就像KK，

我也觉得他不胖，但实际上他不太瘦，

也不太胖，就有点肉肉然后一点点双下巴。

男子太瘦会很没有安全感的。

我反而觉得男子需要有点肉肉的（才可爱），

不是胖啦。。哈哈。。

但是爱吃又爱煮的KK，

要瘦下来不容易吧。。

哈哈。。

期待他的 choc brownies.

看来我也要让他尝尝我的厨艺，

让他知道我的厨艺不是说假的，呵呵。。

今天累了，明天再加油吧！

晚安～

Painting the Colorful Uni's life~

2010-01-29T09:48:00.000-08:00

今天两点半的课，说真的，我不是特地迟到的，

都怪那笨电话，是时候买新手表了。。

刚走进班上，不是特地要让大家发现的，

只是笨蛋的我不小心撞到门了。。 =.=

还没坐下来，我那伟大的AA，

DrTeoh就说：you will be in the same group with her(Ivy)，

我和KWen对望了一下，汗 =.=

缺了两堂课，糟糕，没有准备 slides 和 print tutorial，

还好我的teammate 递给了我“多余”的。

庆幸。还没进入状况的我，KWen 向我晃了晃手机，

原来他传了答案给我，呵呵，真好。

让我还不至于被AA发现我翘了太多课而不会回答他的 tutorial.

230的课圆满结束，准备去上430的课。

结果太早到那边，只好在IT LAB上网。

5分钟不到就放弃了上网。开始研究 ECON。

经典的是，SMeng和QHui 两个人看我一个人做ECON, 再次汗。。。

430的课实在是太“闷”热了。

没有冷气不要紧，该死的是，

不知道是哪一个 classmateS 身上的“香味”让人快要窒息了，

真是哭笑不得。

2小时的课，

让我感觉“地转天旋”OMG。

630终于解脱了。

和 ET 去吃晚餐，旺角的 cheesy steam rice。

还没吃到半笼，就已经饱了，

什么！我的食量曾几何时变小了。。

是好事？

应该是坏事吧，不能去吃buffet了，肯定亏大本。

和他聊呀聊，糟糕，

好像说的太多了，JASMINE LAW 不要多嘴！

和他聊到梦想，知道他在鼓励我，

他说不了解我 either 是没有自信还是太谦虚了。。

恩，我想是没有自信吧。

总觉得，他拥有一双透视眼。

本人有幸的认识了IRON MAN的儿子,

现在有认识了一个拥有透视眼的ET, XD。

今天，撒了谎。

我知道不应该，只是，善意的谎言，

为了停止更多的是非，何乐而不为。

今天，做了坏人。

不理不想理会的事情，

是为了让自己心情好点。

今天，恨了心。

不多说不想继续的话题，

让自己时间空点，

做些自己喜欢的事。

今天，感恩了。

和亲爱的人说了笑话，

关心了该关心的人，

疼爱了该疼爱的自己。

今天，还是忍不住手了。

我。。。

买了。。

GEO LENS 哈哈。

爱美无罪！

Miss you my dar..

2010-01-10T09:59:00.000-08:00

A long, lonely time,

It goes so slowly,

And time can do so much,

When the time has come,

will you still be mine?

miss you. .... ...

I am good in disguise, I know.

Pretending that am not one of your followers.

Furnished my ignorance of your messenger status by apathy, to show that I don't really care.

But deep in, I do.

I am just too shy to make the starting move.

Welcome 2010

2010-01-05T05:41:00.000-08:00

新的一年新希望，这句话有点老套，可是却切切实实表达了我内心所想的。

设立新目标；

新一年新的财政预算；

培养好习惯；

要每天都用心的笑；

走进其他人的世界，如果可以也把微笑带入他们的生活；

。

今年会是个很精彩的2010！

。

看着身边的你们，才发现独自飞了那么多年，该停止飞翔了吗？我不确定。

。

闭上眼睛，然后，飞。

这一次飞到了二十九岁，我看到的是个事业强人。

拥有自己的事业，咖啡馆，身边有很多疼爱我的人。

是幸福的。

睁开眼睛，飞回到现实。

明白只有努力现在，梦想才有实现的可能。

要比其他人更努力，更努力。

人因梦想而伟大！

I do believe in fairy tales :)

I gotta feeling, and this year gonna be a good good year!

Caffeine

2009-12-17T10:51:00.001-08:00

为了考试，熬了几个夜晚，皮肤糟糕的不得了，

Mr Subar 真是恶魔，有他的科目，真让我心力绞碎。

可，最近的心情，是晴朗的。

看你偶尔传来的照片，那笑脸，让我也会心一笑了。

感觉就像冷天，喝一杯浓浓的原味摩卡，上面有浓浓的奶油。

感觉幸福。。。

我知道，你就在身边，靠近的。

但，有时你淡淡的问候，让我有种失望的感觉。

有时，会希望不只是朋友。。

不知道在哪里听到的，说：你是我爱情里的唯一，只可惜，爱情不是我的唯一。

写完了部落格，就要回去读 Quality Management... 天啊！

现在还是夜晚，不要发白日梦了。

上天时会惩罚爱发白日梦，浪费时间的小孩。

只是，上天，你还是腾一腾时间来保佑我吧！

情绪的波动，也许只是感动

2009-11-27T01:58:00.000-08:00

27-11-09

人要活在现在，

不要活在从前，

也不要活在不切实际的虚幻未来。

有时觉得迷惘，

看不到前路，

只是，还是要拿起勇气，

勇敢走下去不是吗？

以后的路，

是一个人，

有个伴，

还是需要被依赖，

不重要了不是吗？

只要开开心心，

无论前面的路是天晴还是暴风雨，

都会具备勇气走下去！

。

一个人也不错啊，

一个人的chocolate cheese cake，

一个人的 forest fruits tea,

一个人的下午茶，

只属于我自己的。

。

原来一直以来，我最爱的是自己，

自私的我，

到最后，还是剩下自己一个人，

也许，要更好对待疼爱我的人。

也许心了会哀怨说：有付出过了啊，

只是都受伤了。

但是，那是基本问题，有没有想过解决方案？

有没有想过？

或许，我本来就不是一个善于分析的人。

。

外面下雨天，喜欢冷冷的空气，

有点道路潮湿的味道，

偶尔微风拂脸，

那比起平时掺杂更多水分的空气，

感觉让人更清醒。

下雨天，让我清楚自己的位置。

也只有下雨天，让我情绪波动比平时大。

情绪的波动，也许只是感动。

。

嗯。。要学会没有欲望的看事情，那么才有可能做回自己！

Waiting for the Perfect Man~

2009-11-01T10:02:00.000-08:00

认识一个勇于表达心理感受的他，他习惯每天都写博客，关于他心里爱慕的那个她。

习惯了每天都去他的博客。

也许是现在的人都习惯于冷漠，可是他很特别，

因为他勇于表达心里的感受，不理别人的眼光。

如果是我，真的没有办法。

心里即使很喜欢一个人，也会压抑着。

等待时间冲淡一切，

冲淡爱的感受，

冲淡心里的冲动，

冲淡所有对那个人的一切一切。

可是，也许有天会后悔，因为当初没有努力争取。

但是，即使心里很喜欢，

可是感情，没有办法勉强。

如果对方心里已经有了另一个她，

就不要再盲目的去当人家的备胎，

何必那么的傻呢？

其实，在欣赏着他的勇敢的同时，

心里却有一个声音想和他说，

不要那么傻到当人家的备胎！

也许，爱情就是那么的矛盾。

明明心里知道是一个火坑，可是还是会奋不顾身地扑了下去。

也是、也许要用有足够的勇气，那个人才会得到真爱吧！

虽然心里不想朋友心甘情愿当人家备胎，

可，还是会祝福他，享受那个过程。

也许，等待真爱，

等待故事里的白马王子，

那个perfect man，

等到了只剩下白骨，

也都还是等不到的！

别傻了，还是珍惜眼前人吧！

If that makes me a bitch, okay...

2009-10-29T03:49:00.000-07:00

Even though, there will be harsh time in our life,

but just work even more harder and

I will make sure those bruises will get the paid off,

equally paid off or even greater..

I am tough, ambitious, and I know exactly what I want.

And if that makes me a bitch,

okay...

It's okay to be a different color!

2009-10-12T19:59:00.000-07:00

Had a great weekend, went BBQ steamboat with judokas on Friday.

It was an enjoyable moment which spent with them.

Cause i always seems to eat lesser among all judokas :D (Cause judokas are dinosaurs)

After dinner, we went Xuan's Cafe and played with cards.

= = We played heart attack and I wonder why i am always the slower.

-cry- And Uncle Lee laughed at me always -cry-

Well, it was just a great night :)

Saturday night, went again BBQ party, which organized by Mr Eric T at Pantai Kundur.

And I get to know a lots of nice people that night :)

Maybe was the influences of sea breeze, wine, I did talked a lots, hopefully I were not talking too much.

A nice dancing partner i met, Mr K Roger :D, a charm prince, chatty, serious and yet a nice guy.

It was a great outing, and I enjoyed it much.

I wish to have these kind of party again :)

Sea breeze~ BBQ~ Wine~ Beach~ What a wonderful combination~

Went to Masjid Tanah to meet my mum and her colleagues to join with some religious ceremony. Luckily I would not get loss in the middle of the jungle.

Met with some kind angels and they gave me right directions, thank god!

And I just get there on time, wow~

Well, to me, religion stuff is just like a light house, which responsible is to give directions and light when people is with uncertain and in darkness moments.

But not many would try to understand their religion well, and what is the purpose of having a religious mind.

Just you will have strong faith and hope with more confident if you are religious minded.

Had fun with my mum and her colleagues, and it was just another great day i had.

We were staying in a resort and there is a beach just behind our resort.

(Took some photos but it is not with me now. Will update soon)

Yesterday, after work, I went shopping to get a pair of running shoes.

Luckily I can find a nice one and cheap, hehe, great deal dude!

After shopping, without having any food, i went tennis with Mr Eric T.

Was my first time playing tennis and Mr Eric T keeps on picking tennis balls from the other courts(cause balls that i hit bounced to other courts xD).

I keep on apologize with joking tone, hopefully he would not kill me for letting him running here and there to be my tennis ball machine xD

Initially thinking to do some movement to loss some fat, but bad raining makes me ends up eating. huhu =.=

Though, it was fun and I am looking forward for this coming Saturday, second session of tennis training :)

Nice friends i met, Shawn and Zai.

This is my life~ C'est la vie! J'aime ma vie!

你不是我。。

2009-09-24T21:13:00.000-07:00

That day, you scolded me when I were not showing my guiltiness towards something bad i did, instead of I appreciate to god for giving me good listeners. But deep inside my heart, i just do not want the guiltiness to hunting me for the rest of my life, so I thank god for what she gave, and let me been through. And I know that I am good in sealing and healing my wounds, and the belief is it will cure day by day, just the time matter.

I were not happy when you start blaming me, rather than just being a good listener for me, so I remained silence. Deep in I were thinking, you are not me, how would you know that I am not feeling sad of what I have been through?

Well, you will never know, because you are not me, and you will never know how I feel. Whatever, I dont care. So, you do think that you are good enough to judge others? You do not have the right to judge me, cause you do not know me well enough. This is what I can tell you. I am still that original me!

The Devil & the Duck

2009-09-10T00:27:00.000-07:00

There was a little boy visiting his grandparents on their farm.

He was given a slingshot to play with out in the woods.

He practiced in the woods; but he could never hit the target..

Getting a little discouraged, he headed back for dinner.

As he was walking back he saw Grandma ' s pet duck.

Just out of impulse, he let the slingshot fly, hit the duck square in the head and killed it. He was shocked and grieved!

In a panic, he hid the dead duck in the wood pile; only to see his

Sister watching! Sally had seen it all, but she said nothing.

After lunch the next day Grandma said, ' Sally, let ' s wash the dishes '

But Sally said, ' Grandma, Johnny told me he wanted to help in the kitchen. '

Then she whispered to him, "Remember the duck? '

So Johnny did the dishes.

Later that day, Grandpa asked if the children wanted to go fishing and Grandma said, ' I ' m sorry but I need Sally to help make supper. '

Sally just smiled and said, ' well that ' s all right because Johnny told me he wanted to help?

She whispered again, ' Remember the duck? ' So Sally went fishing and Johnny stayed to help.

After several days of Johnny doing both his chores and Sally ' s; he

Finally couldn ' t stand it any longer.

He came to Grandma and confessed that he had killed the duck.

Grandma knelt down, gave him a hug and said, ' Sweetheart, I know. You see, I was standing at the window and I saw the whole thing, but because I love you, I forgave you. I was just wondering how long you would let Sally make a slave of you. '

Thought for the day and every day thereafter:

Whatever is in your past, whatever you have done...? And the devil keeps throwing it up in your face (lying, cheating, debt, fear, bad habits, hatred, anger, bitterness, etc...)...whatever it is....You need to know that:

God was standing at the window and He saw the whole thing.

He has seen your whole life... He wants you to know that He loves you and that you are forgiven. He ' s just wondering how long you will let the devil make a slave of you.

The great thing about God is that when you ask for forgiveness;

He not only forgives you, but He forgets.

It is by God ' s grace and mercy that we are saved.

Balanced Life?

2009-09-06T18:31:00.000-07:00

有一支西方的考察隊深入非洲腹地考察，請了當地部落的土著人做背伕和嚮導，由於時間緊，需趕路，而這些土著人很吃苦耐勞，背著幾十公斤的裝備物資依然健步如飛，一連三天考察隊都很順利地按計劃行進，大家都很開心。

可是第四天早上，考察隊準備出發的時候，土著人們都在休息不走了，好說歹說就是不願出發。隊員們很奇怪，這幾天大家相處得很好啊，是不小心觸犯了他們還是要坐地加錢？

這時，土著人的頭領解釋道，按照他們的傳統，如果連續三天趕路，第四天必須停下來休息一天，以免我們的靈魂趕不上我們的腳步。

這個現代人也許看來很難理解的解釋，讓我很受觸動。

我們的生活太忙碌了，工作和生活的壓力讓我們日復一日地在趕路，以至於我們很少停下來思考一下，就不斷地被很多東西推著走，或者追逐著眼前的東西而去，而我們的靈魂早已落後在我們匆匆趕路的身影后面無影無蹤。

沒有了自己我們的生活就交給了外物去控制。

又到了一週，我們是不是也放緩腳步，等一等我們的靈魂？

加油！能办到的！

2009-09-01T23:32:00.000-07:00

"When I have fully decided that a result is worth getting,

I go ahead of it and make trial after trial until it comes."

- Thomas Edison

I will always keep this in my mind, and i know i can do it!

can i give up?

2009-09-01T00:23:00.000-07:00

私は　こ疲れた。。

ほんと。。

お休みなさい。。

私の世界。。

My cowardice

2009-08-25T20:36:00.000-07:00

Just feel like dont wan to let go when you are holding my hand,

Well, when i saw the phrase that appearing on my screen, and words that were spoken by your treacle voice, i was blank for a moment.

You were saying: yes, i am confessing to you.

And yes, i was stunt.

But the confession follow by a tone of dissapointment,

which saying that: i know i am not your type.

Neither i cast down or admit the truth, i just keep on silence.

Yes, i treasure the moment spending with you,

but guy, this is just not the moment, yet.

Or you can either say that this is my cowardice.

You know? Somehow,

i do hate myself, sometimes, for my cowardice.....

分享爱～

2009-08-06T02:13:00.000-07:00

Have you ever meet someone in your life that changed you? Maybe it was just a minor change or it does affect your life much.

I have this friend of mine, he likes to do some experiments to see how simple thing can change human behaviors. He paid extra few bucks for his toll charge, instead of asking back the change, he said that the change is paid for the car after his. What would you think the guy behind him would react? Will he do something similar someday? He asked me. And I said maybe. Yea, perhaps.

The scenario was running through my mind, I think if I were the person who received this kindness from someone, I would feel grateful and thank good for being so lucky that day. I will try my best to spread the love to the world too. Maybe, maybe my contribution is merely that little. But Rome was not built in one day! Our world is filled with sickness, sin, crimes.. Why not place your hand into giving, and don’t care about who is that someone, as long as we spread the love and if they feel it deeply, I know they will do it the same too! Let us make our world a better one. This is what i thought.

I was persuade by his idea and share with him another one, which is similar but from another friend of mine. She is one of the special friends I have ever met, even though we live together for only one year, but she changed me. Those days, we cook, we shop, we read, we eat, we gossip, we argue. One day, when we were buying water from the vending machine down our apartment, she inserts 2 * 50cents for a 500ml empty bottle. I was curious that time, and I asked her for reason. I was surprise when she said the change is for the next guy. I wonder why she did that, and keep on asking her. She said: Do you ever wonder how the next person would react when he/she found out that there is extra credit in the machine? Or maybe the next guy is running out of coins, how would he appreciate this act?

There was a lot of idea running through my mind that night. Through simple acts and change others life, even is a small change, I think I will do, and hopefully would be good one. God bless those who do good, and forgive who are good now bad before.

伤害过他人的心，是否值得被原谅？

自由！=寂寞

2009-08-04T20:30:00.000-07:00

大学假期，多数人都回家了，只有我们这些少数人，还在这里奋斗。

校园清静很多，ixora也是，家里静得可怕～

朋友居然建议我看鬼片！

他说：看到怕了，就久了就会麻痹了～天，这什么理论？

（～小花～你千万不要来找我～）

一个人生活，最怕就是生病。

病了就了不起哦，病了还是要吃饭。

三餐自己打理没关系，还要做家务。

真的累了，我索性让房间乱个一团糟。

反正是一个人。

一个人病了，真的很可怕。

头重重，可是还是硬着头皮，驾车出去打包。

话说刚巧有个朋友打给我，要一起吃。

心里有点点开心，毕竟有人陪了。

可是，朋友散漫的脚步，却让我受不了。。

还是一个人好了。。

天！真矛盾～

天！我还在发烧，第三天了～

觉得鱼头的照片有可爱，

刹那间好想念大坏蛋，

想念冰箱，

想家。。。

once upon a time

2009-07-30T20:29:00.000-07:00

为什么对我不理睬？

写信息给你，没回。。

msn留言给你，不睬。。

打电话给你，不接。。

我说错了话？

还是，做错了什么嘛。。？

没有目击证人，

没有呈堂证据，

没有排期审判，

没有一个合理的理由，

就这样把我判期死刑了，

天理何在啊，

还我清白啊，大人～

就在 2009年7月31日，

决定含冤受屈，

接受刑罚，

可是。。可是。。

你却没一回事，

若无其事的，

主动找我～@>@

大人，那小女我请你高抬贵手，

还我个清白吧！

09 0 09 0 30

想念。。被距离拉得更远。

还是，只可以说，从来都没有靠近过。

只是，等待让人觉得时间好漫长。

好累，只是，值得再等下去吗？

10 0 02 0 18

i am glad that you called.

it is sweet that you still remember this old mate :)

it is always a gap and it will always be,

but it is a blessing that i will always have you

as one of my best friends.

hoping to seeing you soon.

one month time dude~

MochaMocha~~大好きね

2009-07-28T20:12:00.000-07:00

Recently i found one self learning language website, which is livemocha. What a coincident, since i love mocha so much.. xD and it is FOC!!

This is a good medium to learn about foreign languages, from the sources provided and also native speakers of the language. I have registered up courses for beginner japanese and also advanced english. Above shown is the interface of one of the courses. There are four basic lessons during the learning process, read, listen, write and speak. And i found out that it is actually helping in preparing me for the coming japanese language test!

皆さん! それを試みなさい!

www.livemocha.com

日本語わ　大好きね～～

理想的結婚式

2009-07-21T19:21:00.000-07:00

一场完美的婚礼，应该是要怎样的？

完美的婚礼，如果能和自己爱的，而她也很爱你，珍惜你的人结婚，那就是完美。

有一个朋友在筹备婚礼，就随口问了问。

我说：结婚是什么感觉？如果是我，我会觉得筹备婚礼好累。

朋友说：结婚。。是两个人的思想都达成共识的时候。两个人都想生活在一起的时候。就结婚咯～筹备婚礼是累，很累，只是在乎的不是婚礼当天，而是在准备时的那过程。当中一定会有意见不合的时候，那就要看彼此会不会体谅对方了。记得，重要的是过程！看着银行里的钱慢慢的少，我宁愿当初旅行结婚算了，不搞那些华人的仪式！

我听了，非常反对！因为我觉得女人，一生中重要的是，有个完美的婚礼！

我说：女人最重要的是完美的婚礼！绝对不可以随随便便！

朋友说：不是随便，只是，除了婚礼，还要花钱装修新家，准备一笔钱给未来的孩子，还有很多。这一切一切都需要金钱！一直以来，女人都想要嫁个有钱人，我想我明白，这不是你们现实，是想要生活有保障！只是当男人，也真的有够累的！

听了朋友那么说，顿时恍然大悟。

因为我一直都以为，婚礼最重要的是结婚当天，所以，我梦想我的婚礼是那么的完美！原来这是我的自私想法！

所以，姐妹们，正在筹备婚礼的人，还是打算要结婚的人，还有未来即将结婚的你们，要结婚，请有个完整和正确的计划！

很多人谈了很多年的恋爱就结婚。是为了给对方交代而结婚吗？还是真的想要结婚而结婚？无论什么原因，祝福你们。

也有些人谈了很多年恋爱，就和对方分手，原因是性格不合，在一起那么多年了才发现不合哦？这也还好，好过结了婚才离婚，那需要花费很多时间和精神。但女人好运的话，可以分到老公一半财产。前提是，你要找个有钱的老公。

那你会问我，那些结了婚到后来又不相爱的人，可他们不离婚呢？那我告诉你，受苦的是孩子。试想一下，有对夫妻天天在家里冷战，虽然结了婚有了孩子。他们在乎的是自我的感受。还不懂事的孩子，从小就习惯了父母间的冷漠，所以，对自己的兄弟姐妹也不懂什么是亲情。没有爱情也没有感情的父母，造就了不快乐的家庭，也冷漠了孩子。

到最后，受罪的是孩子。所以，要携手共度一生的那些人，我劝告你们，要三思，也要确保自己会爱对方一辈子，无论是痛苦，疾病，贫穷，都会爱对方一辈子，以免害了自己的家庭，害了自己！记得，最无辜的是孩子！！！

爱在记忆中找你

2009-07-19T09:33:00.000-07:00

有些爱无论多美丽动人，

也是注定要插肩而过。。

狂欢之后还剩下什么？

2009-07-12T11:58:00.000-07:00

狂欢之后还剩下什么？

狂欢之后只剩下

疲惫

和香烟味。。

每个夜里，

只能用长岛冰茶来麻醉自己，

好让自己能轻易入睡。

也习惯了用左手牵着自己的右手，

让自己感觉没那么另类。

为什么一个人的夜晚，

总是没有那么容易累？

也比较难以入睡？

回首以前的自己，

感觉自己非常的颓废。。

而现在的这个我，

感觉有点对，

可是在对的同时，

又感觉有点伪。

诶！

这个世界有点不对！

人们宁愿接受有点伪的我，也不愿接受不对的我！

天！

这个世界让我有点搞胃！

Can i still hold on my smile and walk away?

2009-07-06T01:26:00.000-07:00

心里对他们有非常失望的感觉。

不知道为什么，

真的很失望。

我想，

他们认识我也不是两三天的事情，

为什么他们对我的人格会有质疑，

真的非常失望。

尤其是哪一天，

他们居然在我面前讨论我，

被我听到。（可是，我假装没有听到。。。）

为什么，

他们凭什么那样对待我！

还是让自己冷静一段时间，

不要见他们。

想想，

他们是不是对自己好的朋友！

值得自己对他们这样无条件的付出吗？

这一刻，我犹豫了。。

日本，愛してる!

2009-07-06T01:17:00.000-07:00

26/6/2009

从日本回来已经有两个星期了。

舍不得那边的气候，那边对人的态度，舍不得那边的爸爸妈妈。

他们让我感到很温暖。。

在那两个星期，我有很多体验，对许多事情也有了改观。

这个世界很大，人却非常渺小。

好没用哦，回来的时候，居然在飞机场哭了，好丢脸。

只是，在心里，我会永远都记得他们，感激他们带给我的回忆。

わからない。。

2009-05-29T02:23:00.000-07:00

I was shake up that day

when you confess in front of everyone, really.

There was a moment

i am thinking

whether should we move on.

Really, there was one moment..

But,

the bad feeling

just could not get off from my mind.

Maybe one who scare to get hurt not deserve true love.

Maybe i am not as strong as i thought............

Bury my love

2009-05-16T05:21:00.000-07:00

如果觉得回忆太重，是个负累，就选择放下吧。

放下了，才可以爬得更高，看得更远，走得更轻松自在。

长痛不如短痛。。

这句话，还真是说的一点也没有错。

原来承诺，真的是不值钱的东西。

在两个人不再相爱的时候，承诺也随风而去。

当承诺已不再，我们的爱情，不，我要亲手埋葬我的爱情。

email forensic

2009-05-14T06:17:00.000-07:00

while searching through the final year project list, am attracted by this topic.

em, interesting and not easy tough..

just worry one day i will say

"nah, this is my dead body,

want it or not,

take it to the forensic for the life or dead analysis @@"

Feed with Aspirin

2009-05-13T02:32:00.000-07:00

Feeding my plant with Aspirin,

does it helps to cure its pain,

stop it from crying?

Or,

it just stop the production

of prostaglandin? (which may triggers swelling and pain)

impulsion.. greece...

2009-05-12T08:30:00.000-07:00

这照片，让我有想要去希腊的冲动。。。。

雅典的日落。。。。

Street of Knights, Rhodes Old Town, Rhodes

(Photos are taken from kenn's facebook)

沒有永遠對的價值觀

2009-05-10T08:29:00.000-07:00

朋友手拿一份報紙，說讓我做一個小小的測驗，我欣然同意了。

問題一：如果你知道有一個女人懷孕了，她已經生了八個小孩，其中有三個耳朵聾、兩個眼睛瞎、一個智能不足，而這女人自己又有梅毒，請問，你會建議她墮胎嗎？

我剛要回答，朋友制止了我，又問我第二個問題。

問題二：現在要選舉一名領袖，而你這一票很關鍵。

下面是關於這三位候選人的一些事實：

候選人A：

跟一些不誠實的政客有往來，而且會咨詢占星學家。他有婚外情，是一個老煙槍，每天喝8─10杯的馬丁尼。

候選人B：

他過去有兩次被解雇的記錄，睡覺睡到中午才起來，大學時吸過鴉片，而且每天傍晚會喝一夸特的威士忌。

候選人C：

他是一位受勛的戰爭英雄，素食主義者，不抽煙，只偶爾喝一點啤酒。從沒有發生過婚外情。

請問你會在這些候選人中選哪一個？

朋友讓我把答案寫在紙上,然後告訴我說:

候選人A是：富蘭克林•羅斯福，

候選人B是：溫斯頓•邱吉爾，

候選人C是：亞道夫•希特勒。

我聽了答案驚訝地張大了嘴巴。朋友表情凝重地問我：

你是不是為世界人民選擇了希特勒？那你會建議這位婦女墮胎嗎？

我說：這個問題不用考慮，我們受計劃生育優生優育教育多年了，都生那麼多歪瓜劣棗了，就別再添亂了。當然墮胎啊。

朋友說：你殺了貝多芬，她是貝多芬的母親。
我又一次吃驚地張大了嘴巴。

朋友說：嚇一跳吧？本來你認為很好很人道主義的答案，結果卻扼殺了貝多芬、創造了希特勒？

最後朋友總結道：所以不要用既定的價值觀來思考事物。

我抓過朋友手中的報紙，原來真是一個測驗題，題目是《你的決定滅了誰》。

重要的是，不是我們在哪，而是我們要往哪走......

如果你知道往哪走，世界會為你開出一條路

差点被雷劈了！

2009-04-26T04:44:00.002-07:00

最近很忙，都快要喘不过气了。

只是，感觉到生活很充实，只是还不是最好的，还可以更好。。

这几天，让我看清了很多人，谁真心对我，假意对待。。

只是，到最后，我还选择了对每个人好，去相信每一个人的动机都是好的，是很傻吧。。

虽然很忙，每天都熬夜，可是却不想轻易服输！

虽然很忙，每天还是会抽空睡午觉（当学生的好处，哈哈！），没有办法，每天熬夜，偶尔还是要插插电！

今天下午睡午觉时，发了一个奇怪的梦，真的是有惊无险！

我差点就被雷劈了！

可怕的是，那个闪电大的可怕！

可是有惊无险，只是在我身边经过。。

还好我还活着！

上网查了查，想了解这个梦。。

·梦见十分耀眼的闪电 —— 要去外国旅行。（哈哈，对对对，Yokoso Japan!)

·梦见远处雷打电闪 —— 要遭受损失和不幸。

·学生梦见打雷闪电 —— 是祥兆，能取得优异的考试成绩。（最好是这样，大考就快到了）

·少女梦见打雷闪电 —— 是吉兆，会嫁到一个有名望的家庭。（恩，有夸张，男朋友都还没有。。）

·男病人梦见打雷闪电 —— 身体会复原。

·梦见雷电过后 —— 四周一片漆黑，意味着灾难临头，灾祸有可能落到做梦人的头上也可能降到受自己保护的人头上。

·梦见不时闪电 —— 看不清道路，只好摸黑走路，会击败对手，度过难关和不幸。

·梦见差一点儿被雷电击伤 —— 灾难可以避免。（感谢上天！）

·梦见外出时，晴天打雷 —— 要想提升，困难重重。

·农民梦见闪电 —— 要发生旱灾和饥荒。

×加油！挨过这个星期，什么都是值得的！！

Live a life, C’est la vie!

2009-04-19T00:07:00.000-07:00

开心就是和你们在一起！

感谢上天让我遇见你们，虽然以后的路是的未知数，但是我会珍惜现在，至少现在和你们在一起，我觉得很愉快自然。

有时候，你觉得自己得到了一些东西，可是你不知道，上天正在偷偷将一些属于你的东西从你身边拿走。

就是那么公平，我相信这个道理，这个是平衡的原理。

所以，当有些事情，让你感觉伤心，让你感觉失去，让你觉得你愤怒，不愉快，

这些都不重要，重要的是，你在这些考验中，得到了什么。

古人云：有得必有失。

是同样的道理。

‘喜欢付出时的感觉，这让我感觉愉快！’

有很多事情，虽然很想去了解，可是即使是了解了，又怎样？

对你有帮助吗？

有些事情，不了解，反而才最好。

就是那么自相矛盾。。。

傻傻的，假装不想知道的事情，它从来都没有发生过，多好。。

如果人可以选择记忆，那有多好。

那我可以把不愉快的记忆，选择删除掉。

然后再选择植入开心的记忆。

一辈子傻傻的。。。多好。。

虽然有时还是会任性的对自己说：好不想长大！

只是，现在的自己，选择了活在当下！

Live a life, C’est la vie!

Life~

2009-04-14T09:36:00.000-07:00

泥だらけよ驯染めない都会で
沾满尘土,无法适应的都市

同じように笑えないうつむいて歩いたの
无法表露同样的笑容,垂着头前行

急ぎ足ですれ违う人たち
人们快步行走,互相交错

「梦は叶いましたか?」
\"你的梦想,实现了吗?\"

アタシまだモガいている
我依然彷徨

子供の顷に戻るよりも
比起能回到童年时光

今をうまく生きてみたいよ
更想过好现在的每一天

怖がりは生まれつき
恐惧是与生据来

阳のあたり场所に出て
来到阳光普照的地方,

両手を広げてみたなら
张开双手的话,

あの空越えてゆけるかな?
我也能穿过那片天空吗

なんて思ったんだ
我总是那么想,

飞び立つ为の翼それは
为了展翅飞翔的双翼,我还没能看见.

まだ见えない
我还没能看见.

正是由于不能轻易地走下去,所以,我将继续活在世上
カンタンに行かないから生きてゆける

濡れた子犬拾いあげただけで
只是捡回了被雨淋湿的小狗,

ちょっと笑えちゃうほど
眼泪却夸张地流下,

涙がこぼれてきた
稍微有点可笑吧

爱されたい爱されたいばかり
希望被爱,希望被爱,总是说着这一句话

アタシ言っていたよね
我说过了呢

求めるだけじゃダメね
只是渴求被爱而不去付出,是不行的

子供の顷はママの事
小时候也有做过一些事

ひどく伤つけた
让妈妈伤心过呢

日もあったよね変わりたい
真想将一切都改变掉

いま全部
现在的全部！

阳のあたる场所に出て
来到阳光普照的地方,

この手を强く握ってみたい
想紧紧的握住这只手,

あの场所あの时を壊して
将那个地方,那个时间破坏

I can change my life

でも心の中すべてを
可是,心中的一切,无法完全传达

とても伝えきれない
无法完全传达

カンタンに生かないから
正是因为不能简单地生存下去,

生きてゆける
所以,我将继续活在世上

阳のあたる场所に出て
来到阳光普照的地方,

地図を広げてみるけど
打开地图寻找,

I know... You know...

迷い道も仕方ない
迷失方向是无可奈何

I can change my life

过ぎてきた日々全部で
所有已经过去的日子,

今のあたしなんだよ
才构成了今天的我

カンタンに行かないから
正是因为不能简单走下去,

生きてゆける
我将继续活在世上

爱一人

2009-04-12T21:39:00.001-07:00

如果你不爱一个人,
请放手.
好让别人有机会爱她.

如果你爱的人放弃了你,
请放开自己,
好让自己有机会爱别人.

有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的,

有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的.

人生中有许多种 .
但别让自己为一种伤害.

有些缘分是注定要失去的,
有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的,

爱一个人不一定要拥有,
但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱她.

男人哭了是因为他真的爱了.
女人哭了是因为她真的放弃了.

如果真诚是一种伤害,
我选择谎言;

如果谎言一种伤害,
我选择沉默;

如果沉默是一种伤害,
我选择离开.

如果失去是苦，
你怕不怕付出 ,

如果迷乱是苦，
你会不会选择结束,

如果追求是苦，
你会不会选择执迷不悟 ,

如果分离是苦，
你要向谁倾诉,

好多事情都是后来才看清楚,
好多事情当时一点也不觉得苦!!!!

Insomnia, so bad..

2009-04-06T14:05:00.000-07:00

public class Ass{

public static void main(String[] wth){

char assignments;

char Killer;

char Sleepless_Night;

char Sleep_Killer;

If (assignments == Killer) && (assignments == Sleepless_Night)

{assignments == Sleep_Killer;}

System.out.println("This is what happening when an IT student got insomnia" + assignments);

}

.: Assignments == Sleep Killer ? || Jasmine == Assignments Killer???!??

OMG, i am starting to write nonsense in this sleepless night..

wth..

I hope i could manage to finish all assignment following my initial plan.

Hopefully..

Blank mind now...

Hardly breath...

Mr CHou, stop torturing me in this lovely morning, please come date me ASAP!

I beg you!

love marathon

2009-04-01T09:44:00.000-07:00

想问你一句：你原谅我了吗？

没有想到，

觉得最需要人陪的时候，你还愿意陪着我，

愿意听我述说着大学里傻傻的笑话，趣事。

如果今天你有了女朋友，你会这样对我吗？

一个假设性的问题，

不会吧？也许你会？

就当我是傻瓜，喜欢在自己架构的情节里兜兜转转。。

你是一个很温柔的人，

我在好久以前就发现到了，

只是为什么当初的我，

选择了把心交个你，却又让自己的心飘走。

现在，我们差距大了，

因为，

我们再也不是当初那个十八岁的我们。

但唯有大家都变成熟了，

我们的距离，才会再次拉近。

只是我知道，

你会是我永远的知己，

我不会破坏这个关系的，

谢谢你，我的初恋。

April fool foolish fool

2009-04-01T07:13:00.000-07:00

不知不觉都四五年了，

距离上个愚人节的玩笑，

上天开了我一个愚人节的玩笑。。

愚人节的玩笑不是玩不起，

但是拿自己的生命开玩笑，真的接受不了。

偏偏，

今天有一个白痴，

开了我一个愚人节的玩笑。

而他的白痴理由是，

为了证明我是真心关心他的一个朋友？！

需要真样子吗？

我真的很想生气，

还是不能原谅他那白痴思想。

天啊！

为什么我有那么一个白痴小学同学！

2 days 1 night melaka trip

2009-03-17T00:21:00.000-07:00

Starting of the day- 14-03-2009(finally got our Lunch-Shibaraku)

wow, this pretty lovely lady

have such a big appetite @_@

itadakimasu!

kiwi peanut popiah ice cream~

cant wait to start.

Jonker street

before entering jonker street...

cute tiny key hanger

siu mai ladies!

Dinner time!

Cendol, ABC, laksa!

Tanglung Exhibition beside Melaka river cruise

the most expensive dragon tanglung in whole tanglung exhibition.

tanglung exhibition beside melaka river cruise.

tiny eye on malaysia 2.

Eye on malaysia

yea, our very "virgin" trip to eye on malaysia.

was very excited before going in the cable car.

wow, everyone getting excited!

A Famosa 15-03-2009

lunchie lunchie - chicken rice balls

Church of ST. FRANCIS XAVIER, built 1849

wow, as if we were in Holand, windmill ^^

start lovin it!

tri-cycles

A-Famosa

i passes by every weekend without knowing this is the so called "Victory fountain".

Somewhere near the zoo Melaka~

i like the pond so much, especially night time~

on: relaxing mode.

killers!

picnic-ku without foods!

Bees farm

Crocodiles farm

somewhere near dataran pahlawan

someone we love

2009-02-11T02:25:00.001-08:00

永远都不要嫌弃爱我们的人。家人，爱人，朋友。

家人，他们为了让家里生活更好，认真努力，为爱的人打拼，却放慢了脚步，不再为自己奢求什么，这是家人。

爱人，为了另外一半，放下了自己的梦想，因为牺牲，子女乖巧，学业优良，另外一半因为岁月多了几分魅力，而看看镜子里的自己，确实和当年的自己没有差别，只是已经白发斑斑。

为了家人，爱人付出的他们，我们怎么可以嫌弃他们呢？如果没有他们，今天的我们，会在什么位置？

当你对你爱的人，有着怀疑的心理，是不是应该看会当初那个你曾经爱过的他呢？他还是没有改变吧？他还在原地，只是你已经前进了。应该嫌弃为了自己的停下脚步的那个他吗？心里有嫌弃过吧？但是，是不是更应该去爱他们呢？

好像。。
好想家。。

exposure

2009-01-08T01:19:00.000-08:00

have you ever think of what you would become after a coupled years?

from internal and also external perspective.

what you want it to be? how it would become?

do you ever hoping yourself, someday that you might made some great achievement, and let someone around you, who love you to be proud of what you have done?

but when the time has comes, you never achieved what you initially expectation, would you be shameful of your bad achievement; or would you backtrack what you have gone so far, and those efforts, time, tear you have put in?

which aspect would you see it?

it is always a mentally dilemma, but for me, i would rather choose to look at what i have put in, which allow me to come that far.

in my opinion, i believe that everyone has their own path to go that is predetermined by god, which we believe. everyone has their own choice to be made when when come to some point of their life. everyone will reach the same end, death, but we choose the different path to reach our destination. what i truely believe is the exposure that we had from our surrounding. this merely little exposure will changed us.

from which side we choose to see things, how we feel them from the inside, what these things/incident made us feel, and why these thing would made us feel this way. there is always unsolved mystery out there. and this very unique mystery is generated from our brain, argha, quite funny isn't it? exposure is playing a big part in our life, because expose to good thing, this will changed us to a more optimistic thinking person, but how about what is already originated in our blood? from the genetic itself, can we able to change it?

tiring.. to be continued..

语言障碍@@

2008-12-04T09:31:00.000-08:00

最近在学日文，还觉得不是很难的。至少比法文容易得多多点了。
计划在明年之前学会看，听，说日文。

现在开始计划满满，总觉得时间过得太快了，稍有点不够用。

觉得，很多事情都是注定的。无论是好或者坏，是在乎我们怎么去看待罢了。
用心去做每件事，不要问可以得到什么，要问自己可以付出什么。
一直在计算自己得到什么的人，永远都不会满足，而他们也得不到那简单却永恒的快乐。

聪明的人喜欢猜心，虽然每次都猜对了，却失去了自己的心。
傻气的人喜欢给心，虽然每次都被笑了，却得到了别人的心。

chances

2008-09-10T09:51:00.001-07:00

人生短暫，也許離開就在下個瞬間。
生命，沒有辦法控制，也沒有辦法預測。

我們的一輩子，長大的太快，學習的太慢，忘記得太早，卻覺悟得太遲。。
需要珍惜的，卻沒能好好把握。
錯過了，才想要去彌補。
可是，在墻上插上釘子，拔除的時候，雖然沒有了釘子，可是痕跡卻還在。

很多東西是沒有辦法重新獲得的。
被丟棄的石頭，說過的話，流失的機會，錯過的時間。

珍惜刹那間的快樂，無論是你帶給其他人的，還是別人帶給你的。
這是榮幸，也是愛。

愛要趁早，在還來得及的時候。

人生

2008-09-08T06:37:00.001-07:00

努力的活着，努力的为了未来，那感觉多好。
看到身边的朋友，家人，都很努力的活着，突然发现自己有点懒惰。。

亲情，友情，爱情，所有的关系都有可能背叛自己。
只有自己的价值不会。
当别人怎么看你的价值，都没有关系。
只要自己认定了自己的价值，那才是重点。
而自己的价值会与日俱增。
别人怎么看你都无所谓，当自己认定了自己的位置，那才是最重要的。

快乐也要活着，不开心也是或者。
伤害过我的人，不要对我感到抱歉，也不要对我感觉亏欠。
现在谁在你身边，你就对谁好一点。
不会想要去恨一个人。
用一辈子去恨一个人，是对自己残忍。
需要用一辈子去恨得那个人，不会值得。

相遇是种缘分，而要延续这个缘，需要一颗感恩的心。
但是不是每个相遇都值得感激，这还有待查办。

待续。。

eternity

2008-09-05T10:11:00.000-07:00

worst to miss a person is when you know that you could not have them anymore, they are just in your memory.

i miss you, even if i go to sleep,
i still can hear your voice, your laugh.
still remember i last held your arm.
sometimes in my dream,
i still feel the warmth of your hand,
which hold mine since i was young.

i still hear your last word to me.
and those words, i never will forget.
advice, care, scold, everything.....

heaven is just a place nearby,
so there is no need to say good bye.
you spread your wings.
you had flown away to somewhere.
but you are always on my mind.
wish that i could bring you back.

you have a special place in my heart, always.

I am best ^v^

2008-08-24T12:45:00.000-07:00

Met with a sweet girl and she really impress me with her thought, even though she is younger than me.
I like the positive way she think, I like the way she smile, I like the way she is.

Thank god that let me went through all the difficult ways, although it does hurt sometimes, get bleed sometimes, but I really appreciate that what god let me learn through all these harsh way.

Sometimes, you need a good listener to listen your inner thought.
Sometimes, you might need a little encouragement, and you might never know all these little things might bring you forward in life.
You might never know that.
Or sometimes, you need a best friend, to guide you when you are lost in the darkness.

Supportive person always surrounded by supportive people.
Sharing experience and thought might be help to build you into a better person.

Thank god again, I am still breathing.
This is my now, I feel happy because I am made of more than my yesterday.

gambate kudasai

2008-08-23T11:18:00.000-07:00

24-08-08

這幾天心情不怎麽好，好懷念以前的日子，開心的日子。。

討厭自己，總是喜歡徘徊。。
可是很多時候，真得好難做決定。
就想要分辨一個人的好與坏，那是何等困難的事。
無論結果會有多坏，無論哪會多麽地讓你傷心，反感。
只是，怎樣都需要去面對。
就只有面對了，那才會得到解脫。
失敗了，無所謂。
失敗又不等于是放棄。
失敗只是用來形容還沒成功的時候，對不？
加油，至少今天的我，超過了我的昨天。
那就夠了。
真的。
把不勇敢，不愛笑，不好的一切一切都丟掉。
明天又是新的一天，如果每天活得都不開心，豈不就浪費了這，短暫又精彩的人生？
每天笑一笑，沒有什麽事情過不了！ ^v^

Moral inspiration

2008-08-16T00:53:00.000-07:00

16-08-2008

好可怕，夢裏的那個魔，一直追逐我，什麽時候才能放下呢？
不想一直重復得與失的感覺，真得很難受。
真真假假，真亦假時，假亦真。
道德經裏說：故常無慾以觀其妙，常有慾以觀其徼。
在沒有欲望的時候，才能觀察出萬物的本來面目；如果心裏有欲望，看到的只是萬物的外表而已。
老子在相對論裏說的：古有無相生。
顧名思義，就是説沒有“有”的感覺，就不會有“無”的感覺。
就連做夢也夢見，是要暗示我什麽來著？
難道在心裏深處，還是期待真愛的到來？
也許人本來就不應該放棄期望，只是那可能只會讓你跌得更深。。。。

X my dear

2008-08-14T21:35:00.000-07:00

Au revoir,is the last word I said to you.
I still can feel the sadness and sorrow.
Kind of missing you last night, but I know you and me is not going to work out, we are from different world.

Lack of courage, but I really hope that I can tell you face to face that I am so sorry.
Those soreness days, is to be faced but not hide, I wish I could be stronger.
Maybe, the only thing that ought to be blame is fate, which destined us to meet each other, but it never, allows us to get any closer.

Sometime our tears blinded the love, make us confuse and trade our soul to the fate.
I wish I could be strong enough to hold my own fate in my hand.
Life is just like gambling, we would not win in every bet, but at least we will try our fate, to get the best outcome.

Does true love really exist?
Is regret really exist, or it is only the absence of love?

I hope I would meet someone, who is going to make me believe this…

… to believe that the happiest thing in life is to love and be loved.